In My Own Skin

It’s funny how we press forward, never knowing what will alter our life. Fractions of seconds are what separates the happiness to fear, the joy to pain, the perfect to grief. I’m yelling no, no, why?!! I’m screaming within my own skin, I’m shaking on the outside so hard my tears downpour past my chin. Reach inside my chest and calm my soul, don’t you dare leave us, this cannot be the final chapter, my mind is going to lose control. I didn’t even get to hear your cry, don’t you dare lever us, we haven’t seen the color in your eye! Don’t cover us in your blankets of lies, don’t give me a textbook answer to your failures and lack of comply. I’m racing to catch my emotions as they break out the gate, unbridled and free as can be, this won’t be the last of this unfamiliar state. My wife needs my support, as I need mine, but my wife comes first, don’t let her fall, it’s your time to shine. Darkness is like the ocean, it comes in waves, darkness is a thought when light is present outside the cave. My mind is scrambled, nothing is going as thought, when can I let go and let the bad memories rot!?